Adhoora Pyaar, Adhoori Zindagi
Aaj neend puri nahi hui, pairon mein dard hai, aankhon mein neend, aur dil kaam se bhaag raha hai... Dil chaahta hai koi ho — ek ladki, ek dost, jisse baith kar bas baat karte rahun... jise sirf dekhta rahun... jahan baat karne ka koi pressure na ho, sirf ek sukoon ho.
Zindagi mein kabhi wo smoothness mili hi nahi... Kabhi koi aankhon mein aankhon daal ke yeh nahi keh saka — “Main hoon na…”
Jaise jab Kanika se mila tha — bas uski aankhon mein dekh raha tha, jaise usse samajhne ki koshish kar raha hoon... lekin har rishte ki tarah wo bhi adhoora hi raha. Tum mil to jaate ho, par poore nahi milte.
Main sirf yeh chaahta tha — koi ho, jisse kuch kehna na pade... bas uske saath waqt guzarein, uski aankhon mein sukoon mile.
Mujhe kabhi pyaar waisa nahi mila jo ruk ke saans lene de, jo dil ko itna bhar de ki aansuon se nikal aaye —
hamesha sirf hurt mila... aur jawab kabhi nahi.
Main usse pyaar karta tha jisse maine shaadi ki. Sabse lada, maa baap se bhi. Jab sab toot raha tha, maine kaha — “Main sambhal lunga, tu pareshan mat ho.”
Shaadi ke baad bhi uski respect ke liye sab kuch kiya.
Usne galti ki to kabhi daanta nahi…
sirf itna kaha: “Koi baat nahi, tu theek hai ye bahut hai.”
Hamare beech sirf dosti reh gayi... pyaar kahin raaste mein chhoot gaya. Aaj bhi main doosri city mein akela hoon. Apni salary ka 2/3rd uske liye bhejta hoon taaki wo theek se jee sake.
Par main?
Main to sirf ek emotional khaali dabba ban gaya hoon… jo sab kuch deta hai, lekin khud ke liye kuch nahi bacha.
Main chaahta tha koi mujhe sambhale... koi mujhe itna pyaar de ki mujhe yakin hi na ho — ki kya ye bhi mere liye possible tha?
Jahan main ro sakun… bas pyaar feel karke.
Par ab lagta hai… meri zindagi ka aadha hissa kharch ho chuka hai.
Aur mujhe ab ummeed nahi ki koi aayega mere tukde jodne...
Main bas ek baat kehna chaahta hoon:
> “Main kabhi adhura nahi tha…
duniya ne bas kabhi mujhe poora hone ka mauka nahi diya.”
Agar tum bhi kabhi aise guzre ho…
to shayad tum meri baton me khud ko dhoondh paoge.
Aur agar kabhi tum kisi ko aisa toota hua pao —
to bas uski aankhon me dekhna…
shayad wo tumse kuch keh raha ho bina kuch kahe.
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(Tumhara apna,
Ek adhura insaan — lekin sachcha)
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